Writing the begining of this entry reminds me of linger- by the cranberries.

It's a song, mixed emotional feelings, nevermind the lyrics. It brings out the kind of feel I'm having..

"Knowing that fire burns, yet still play with it.. some wounds could nvr heal.. Even if it does, it will leave some scars behind.. Jus like a tattoo."

And right now.. I'm erasing the wounds away. Trying every bit of my what's left of. To forget bout the pain. I believe eventually the scars would fade out slowly..

However, before even light the torch,ever wonder, it's gonna cause more pain and overlap more wounds.

I'm learning alot of things recently..
Currently trying to understand the concept of "You forgive and you forget."

Easier as it is to be said than to be done.
Even if I did forget, some flashbacks would always get out of control..

Sometimes i ask myself..Am I cut out to be in a r/s

Why they always failed..
Issit my fault?
Fate?
Why cant we jus get along well..

we love each other..
Why do things to hurt each other sub-consicously?

"Love is like a sweet, it's nice when u 1st put it in ur mouth. Eventually when it melts, you'll start to miss the feeling of the sweetness, and where u even buy that sweet."



Dun wanna talk bout it anymore..

I Pray silently..

what i feared the most will not happen..