Howdy..
It might seems that I've negelcted this blog for such a long time..
However, truth is.. I guess it's just that it's been so long since I posted..Got this phobia of comming over here.

Man it's weird yeah, fancy me feeling afraid of my own blog.
Anyway..
Most of the it's jus that I'm too lazy to write .
Hell' lotsa stuffs happened this month..
I'm glad that the my r/s status is getting better..
I hope it remains this way 'cause I'm unable to take another blow from my current mood and shape..
I'm doing what a normal bf should do now I guess..

Forgive and forget..
Dear teached me that..=)

Teached me lots of stuffs..
How to forget unhappy things.

Well..
Too late to recap on my past months' activity I guess.
I'll just focus the blog on today's entry then.

Right now..
I'm feeling quite out of heart..
I got like so many things to worry about..
Just as I'm about to treat life as a simple matter..
Looking at it in a unchallenging way.

I'm worrying about exams..
They are getting harder and harder..
Yesterday's network infra I got 62 out of 100..
It's bad..Real bad..

That didnt knock me cold..
What really knocked me out cold is that after finishing the OS onlined paper today..
When I click on the submit button..
A shocking figure came out..

44 / 100..

Yes..

I've failed OS MST ..
First time in my life I'd failed a major exam..

I'm the last to leave the exam room..
Can't help thinking about the figures 44..
I cant help thinking about it..
It's like a nightmare..

The only chance I've got now is to do well for it in FST (2 mths later)
However..At that time..
It wont be in such a easy manner as it is now as in all the qns are in MCQs..

Anyway..
Failing a exam though it seems to be a personal issue..

It's not anymore..


I've promised dear I'll work hard..

I dun dare to tell her..I've failed u..
>.<


It's really a bad luck week.
(I'm not cursing or swearing. It's a matter of fact..lol..)

Failed 1 of my exam..
Tml's last paper..
It's math..
sheeshz..
I've yet to figure out the whole of the chapters..

I guess I will do my best now..
Got not much time left..

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*Sighz*
I pray for Billy safety..
I wish he would be happy in the farm..
At least from now on..
Nobody will be negelcting him..
Always forgetting to give him food..
Bring him out for walks..

He left this evening..
When he did..
All I did was to cry alone..
softly to myself..
I've failed as a owner..
I'll never see him again...

It hurts to let him go really...
He's been with me for 4,5 years now..
Although I'm filled with guilt and regrets..
It's too late now..

I wish all these saddy things would be over soon..
I'm exhausted..
I'm glad blogger.com created this place for me to write out how i feel..
Save me the breath and agony...

Right now..
with all these emotions going on inside me..
Uncontrollable..
I've still to face tons of math problems..
counter tml's paper..
racing against time..

I wish god could give me some strength now..
I'm lack of breath..

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