It's been over a week since I've last updated..
Of course. lots of things happened.(as usual.. lols.)

Actually I do feel like blogging sometimes. (it's true =x )

Some moment I've even reached the login page of blogger.com
(Nope, this is not an excuse.) =/


Yet ,just cant bring myself to write anything..

Anwyway yeah~~~
I'm still quite of the typical side of me .
After all these months..
Still so lazy ..Big sleeper~
Late for school, for dates..For work.. (lalala -.-)


Well, as my dear told me : "Well, that's you lor. my dear you see.."

Anyway.. The good thing about that is i know my weakness. =D
At least knew where to start changing .
As the saying goes.. Time changes everything in the world. Heal wounds

The only problem would be me having the courage and determination to do it bahz.

I hope I'll improve more on my weakness.
That's my wish in life.
For it is such a long journey...
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Today was Math lecture. I was a little bit late but nevertheless.
The lecturer started late as usual so I guess I came in on the 'right time' then

The lecture today was actually the last as next monday would be the start of the 3 weeks vacation of SP. holly molly.~!

I smell ..WORK.
Hell yeah~
I'm working as a waiter in pastamania now. (That's worth reporting =D )
It's not quite a bad job actually.
First day of work today .
The working environment is very relax, colleagues are friendly. In this Italian resturant, the best benefit bout it for me was the free staff meal :D

Well, basically..
Staff meal includes a pasta/ pizza , drink a dessert and a soup.
No $ limit .
My way of saying their crews' motto :
"Eat till I'm full, then Pat Pat ur buttocks, and get back to work"

It's really cool to have such a meal for a break of no time limit.
Well, indeed all these are cool but.
Someday I knew I will get sick of the food there.
(Perhaps jump to Sakae sushi to work )

"On the appealing side.. I looked OKay..
Deep within me, there's just this icy feeling in my heart.
It's been there for quite awhile..Some what similar to the phrase there's a chill running down my spine.."

Today's first day of work..
Of course..It's immediately after school which ends at 12pm.
So there's totally no time to find u my dear..

Today while working..
I turned off my hp..

Hopefully to see some weight in the inbox..

Cos I really like the feeling of.. Hey, I've worked all day long, I've got home and woots, my loved ones are looking for me.
How's work babe? haha..hey, how do ur boss looked like. Are ur colleagues friendly. ?
That kinda thing..
I know..
I'm being silly or.. wadever u call it u want..

For me..
I put family above anything else..
Inclduing u my dear.
U're my family..
I loved you..

Baobei..
I do sometimes get insensitive like today.
Absence of ur daily smses somewhat so suddenly today..Makes my heart itchy..
I know it's the word trust here i shld use but..I suddenly realised where this icy feeling comes from.
It came from my heart..Which deep down is yearning, waiting for something.. To arrive.

Guess I'm not used to not having your daily smses..
(Abit childish indeed..but. what can I do. That's how i feel realli..)

It was seconds before I realised now that I had already did the wrong move from the moment I start giving you attitude on the phone..

I admit I was silly enuff to think that u did it deliberately..
However..
After all that explanation you did to me .
I knew I did it again..

Spoiled evertything..
All the surprises you planned for me..
The thoughts..

I've bring you down..
My dear..I'm so sorry..

Everytime i close my eyes now..
Images of you crying burns my heart.

I wished I could think of something to make up for you on right on this instant..
I'm in the wrong I guess..
Just couldn't bear to read ur sms a little lesser..
miss u lesser.

It had all now become a habit..
Hope dear understands..
Stop cyring..
I trust u de..
Jus tat..
I dun trust myself much..

Loving you.
as always..


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