There are always ups and downs in life..
For me..
Both of them are always so tremendous..
I couldn't understand why I still couldn't get the kind of lifestyle I always wanted..

Yesterday..
I've broke someone's heart .

It happened so quickly..
Words of break up wasnt even mentioned..
But deep within me, wanting it to be..

And it did..
We're both single again.

I couldn't believe it .
But it happened..

I'm sorry that I've droven u into despair..
It's just not about you..
It's just me.

You're really a wonder, a treasure..
First time ever had I ever encountered someone tat would do so much stuff for me..
I felt loved..

But..

I also felt stress around me..
Invisible stress..
Tormenting me inside..
I was so afraid I would lose my freedoms..My interests..
I dunno why I'm like so suddenly afraid of losing my freedom..
U wanna a word of forever from me..

I couldn't do it.
I couldn't even tink of it..
I feel that I'm still a kid..
A playful one..
Childish one..
I just cant commit to you..Not to anyone as well.

I've got no money..
I've got no skills.
No education..
I'm realli immature.

Sometimes I do feel being tied up too tightly..
But I knew u do tat because u misses me..
I dare not complain about it cos I've tried hints..
but u were unhappy if there is jus a moment less for u to be with me.

I just couldn't submit to responsibility and commitment.
I'm still a selfish person..
Someone not opt for relationships I guess..

I jus wanna enjoy the fresh air..
The air of freedom..
No lines attached.
I wanna belong to myself..

Doesn't mean that breaking up with u..I'm not hurt..
I'm as pain as you are..
It's because I know tat u love me alot..
The more I felt abit more of guiltyness within me.

I dun wanna hurt u further..
Tat's why i chose to leave..
I hope u understand..

Today u came to find me..
My heart was shattering too.
I might have that smile on my face still..

Deep within me..
Bleeding heart..
I'm Crying inside..

But I'm sorry to say..
For the time being..
I jus wanna be alone..

Labels: I'm a loner.