Hey blog..
I've just had the biggest fight with the one I've always most cherished in my life..

I'm sorry dear.
You can say that I'm quite hard to be understood too.
You liked to talk on the phone i know.

I've always called you daily, 'cause I know you will be happy to hear from me before you sleep.

Despite from fact that I really dislike conversation on the phone, I've try to get pass this obstacle for you.

'Cause that's the power of love.
I would do anything for you.

However, I just dislike the feeling of you being too quiet sometimes on the phone, when nobody's talking, and we're still talking for the sake of being on the phone. I felt really uneasy.

I don't really like that kind of environment.
Especially after fights, you always kept your silence.

I've always wanna clear the silence in the phone.
Tried.

That's why whenever I've finished saying, hoping you could speak up a few good words to end all that argument ('Cause I would stop being angry when I feel better).

'Cause basically I'm human too. I need some things to relieve my heart. Or else there's always this unsatisfied feeling inside me.

I just wish I could gain some care...
Not that kind of care when I receive gifts, being missed.

It's like some sorta felt appreciated, recognized kind of care.
I'm hurt too whenever that's an argument.
No matter who's fault was it, I've never failed to overlook your feelings..

I know you'll be hurt. That's why I'll say things to assure you in the end..
But I don't get the same..I would just let it be in my heart end of the day..

If wanna say who hates quarreling more.
I dare say i hate it more than u do..

Mixed feelings now..
I might get a little emotional here..

Recent piles of project works had drained me totally..
With exams nearing, this adds on to the worse.

So much unfortunate events had happened to me.
So much..I can't even recall anything good that happened to me nowadays..

Basically I just managed to crawl out of hell with what's left on me this 2 weeks..
So much events..

Bad events.
Don't even know where to start from..

So FYP had finally come to an end..
It wasn't easy..But it did ended miraclly..

Valerie and I had to work so hard just to get things done..
And as for you ah lam.
I really dunno how to say you liaos.

You gotta admit the whole FYP thingy u were too slack already.
Even at the critical moment..
You claimed to do this and that, it was until the last minute of the last. You finally showed us your work..

Obvious all that you did were done only recently.
I can't understand why you wanna keep lie and say you did this you did that, in the end, at the presentation day. Francis knew too.

We can't do much editing too or to improve the report anymore.
Just basically dump all our shit into the report and that's it.

80 pages for Francis to headache with..
Hope he's good with puzzle..'cause he got lots of jigsaw to piece in that report.

I'll just let bygones be bygones..
Anyway, from this project thingy-a-thing.

I gotta confess, this whole teamwork thing or partnership
Well.



It's bullshit.

Basically I would feel that I could produce the same quality of work or even better for I am alone doing all that stuffs.

As for the entry during Chinese new year..
The one that had the poem in it.

Never ever did I even expect,
that my best buddy of 3 years.

Without hearing me out..Just walked out like that.

I'm really disappointed.
Such a pity..

Just 1 stupid poem.

3 years.



GONE JUST LIKE THAT.




I've tried explaining story behind that poem and stuffs, tried to get some attention.
You didn't wanna hear me out.
I dunno what the fuck is wrong with you.

I guess the previous incident with pooh had made you lose heart of friendship.

*sighz*

I didn't even blame you for walking out on your friends and even me that time. Ignoring us and such. We didn't do anything wrong.

You just walked out of us like that. Hurting many in the process.

Hope you do some reflection on your own pal.
If you can't figure it out,
Forget it..

'Cause to you, friendship is like pebbles in the river bank.
You like to do whatever you want with it.
Even they are innocent, you throws them into the river whenever you like.

I'm not afraid of saying this because it's the truth.
And as your friend, I also need to let you be aware of this in case you didn't know about yourself. You can be pissed with me, I say it for your own good.

So FYP's down, IP telephony's down, embedded lab test preparation's done.
Left with exams.
First paper.
This coming Thursday..

Come on..
I wish I could have a change in this lifestyle..

Can't take it much more.

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