I'm still lazing around, fresh new years of 2008.
Nothing resourceful, no aim, no targets.

(God kill me pls. =/)

It's 1 week since I last post.
(holy cricket =|)

I muz admit that while u are not aware of it..
Time is always moving on..
Minutes or seconds later, it jus slips off ur life.
Anytime.

Jus like friendship..
Define friendship?

If I were to find such a term for a translate,
it will jus tell me that it's a bond blah blah blah
wif u and another you-known person.

I wonder is it possible to be able to stay wif that person for the rest of my life.

I've lived in this world for nearly 20 years..
Since the day I know how to speak, I'm always curious about friends

I've a childhood friend.
His name was JunWei

I knew him since I was 6 years old.
His father and my father were childhood friends too
(Such coincidence)

I had a fairly well childhood in my life.
But most of all, JunWei's been part of my childhood greatly.
He's been a good friend of mine until that day came.

His parents divorced and he was brought to Australia to stay with his mum permanently.

I never knew the last time we met, was actually the last day I could ever see him again.
(*sigh*) I wished I had his number.
I don't even had the chance to ask for his address.

I was still young then, not knowing what happened.
It's been nearly 6 years I've lost contact with him.

Such a good friend. A pal.
The thing called friendship did not really keep us together.
We were seperated, and drifted apart.

Later parts of my life, whenever I've made new friends.
I find it hard to keep them.
Or they themselves, find it hard to keep me.
'cause, as I matures, there is this thing called personality developes.

A good personality is what keeps things around u smooth sailing.
I guess most of the time, my personality doesn't really match with people.
(maybe I shld do smth bout it, or maybe not. )

Sometimes although having several disputes with my friends, I jus feel that I should never had known them.
I wished I'm better off alone.
But whenever I'm alone, something inside me..Is always craving for company.
(Teenager's Phenomena i guess. =/)

Although some says friendship do last..
But that's jus lucky of them.
For me, never had I really managed to keep anyone.

I've already seen through all.
Betrayal, irritation, Hypocrites, backstabbers. (part of human nature.)
It's always the same thing.
Going round and round..

Mum told me that, friendship to her is jus part of life.
She herself, in her life, never had any true friend before.

Instead, she've always been made used of by some hypocrites.
She told me that, in life, u must think of urself first..
Friendship is an object.
It doesn't follow u forever..
That's what she taught me.

I think I could understand what she means though..
Since we had already fall out wif our relatives.
It's not surprising that she thinks this way.

I guess that's just life.
Making new friends.
Losing them as days go by..
And I've to go through the pain once more.

Nothing is perfect.
The best party in the world will still come to an end..
No matter hw much promises made in friendship.
It's either forgotten or broken.

Witout friends yet on the other hand, u suffer frm lonliness.
Such a dilemma in life.
I'm really sick of all this..
I wished I'm jus a robot.

Labels: Friends' . How long more ?